This Masquerade. / Version6

<style type="text/css">@import url(http://www2.blogger.com/css/navbar/classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> <div style="width: 190; z-index: 3; overflow: auto; overflow-x: hidden; position: absolute; left: 120; top: 0; filter: 0; padding: 1px"> <div class="blog"> <div class="head">Just to let you know</div> <div class="head2">Words can be deceiving</div> Name Jamie Tan Birthday 12May/ (15/F) School ChungChengMain Class 4Justice <img src="http://img263.imageshack.us/img263/1573/mail2bt0.gif"> jamie_tan91@hotm <div class="head">To let this prevail</div> <div class="head2">I speak my heart's words</div> It's sometimes better to let things remain the same. Without change. Because change can be bad. The love might be lost as a result and both are scared. One comes unscathed from the grasp of love but memory scalds deep within. Memory becomes a part of you. But when the memories aren't strong enough the love is lost. But lost love is love. In a different form. Life has to end. Love doesn't. <div class="head">Talk to me</div> <div class="head2">Give me your name</div>  <div align="center" id="cboxdiv"> <iframe frameborder="0" width="150" height="150" src="http://www.cbox.ws/box/?boxid=838044&boxtag=4226&sec=main" marginheight="2" marginwidth="2" scrolling="auto" allowtransparency="yes" name="cboxmain" style="border:#516C00 1px solid;" id="cboxmain"></iframe> <iframe frameborder="0" width="150" height="75" src="http://www.cbox.ws/box/?boxid=838044&boxtag=4226&sec=form" marginheight="2" marginwidth="2" scrolling="no" allowtransparency="yes" name="cboxform" style="border:#516C00 1px solid;border-top:0px" id="cboxform"></iframe> </div>  <div class="head">I'll let go</div> <div class="head2">If you have to go</div> <li><a href="http://www.waxedalive.blogspot.com" title="alfred!"> Alfred</a> <li><a href="http://love-strucked.blogspot.com" title="ashlyn"> Ashlyn</a> <li><a href="http://cchmsco.blogspot.com" title="CCHMSCO:D"> CCHMSCO</a> <li><a href="http://metamorphism-fainter.blogspot.com" title="ck :D"> Chunkiat</a> <li><a href="http://www.xanga.com/roundaboutromance" title="nanatay:D"> Christina</a> <li><a href="http://vitamin-bi.blogspot.com" title="debi"> Debi</a> <li><a href="http://vintage-glam.blogspot.com" title="dyanechia :D"> Dyane</a> <li><a href="http://www.eenial-.blogspot.com" title="lainee :D"> Elaine</a> <li><a href="http://redmandms.blogspot.com" title="huix :D"> Huiming</a> <li><a href="http://jessicaa-.blogspot.com" title="jess :D"> Jessica</a> <li><a href="http://decodednonsensicality.blogspot.com" title="jojo"> Joane</a> <li><a href="http://www.imperfectionlurrve.blogspot.com" title="juno:D"> June</a> <li><a href="http://lie-about-us.blogspot.com" title="malan:D">Marianne</a> <li><a href="http://galtheluving.blogspot.com" title="cute brother ;D"> MingEn</a> <li><a href="http://page-not-available.blogspot.com" title="natalie"> Natalie</a> <li><a href="http://pearlynpearlyn.blogspot.com" title="pearlyn"> Pearlyn</a> <li><a href="http://www.crazycutecool-.blogspot.com" title="weigin"> Weigin</a> <li><a href="http://kong-dreaming.blogspot.com" title="kong :DD"> Xieshern</a> <li><a href="http://thegirlnext-door.blogspot.com" title="yiqing!"> Yiqing</a> <A HREF="http://www.diaryland.com" TARGET="_top"><IMG SRC="http://images.diaryland.com/diaryimages/diaryland1.gif" ALT="hosted by DiaryLand.com" WIDTH="96" HEIGHT="27" BORDER="0"></A> </div> </div> </div></div> <div id="box" style="width: 400; z-index: 3; overflow: auto; overflow-x: hidden; position: absolute; left: 325; top:0; filter: 0; padding: 1px"> <div class="blog"> 29 March 2007, 10:33 pm HELLO DIARYLAND. Im here to say goodbye (: <center>xxx</center> 26 March 2007, 9:30 pm 在你虚弱的时候，总希望有个人能陪着你，走下最后那条路。 Thankyou Changhong Ningmao Jess (: Esp Changhong haha 现在就交给你了 hehe thanks! When youre sad, go talk to Changhong, he'll def make you laugh/smile lol. 我累了没力气了只想把手上的东西都放下什么也不用管;我并不是你想象中那么坚强... Im okay :) It's just time for a break. "A nice & long one" as quoted by Changhong ^^ & Yesssss, I've got pump so stop asking me abt it & stop saying "wah president actually get pump" its not fascinating/amusing. At least not to me. In fact it. is. irritating. Read: I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G. & it pisses me off. So stop it already thankyouverymuch. After syf im gonna mug, like crazy. christina hello kayak partner (: yesyes wuzun is sizzling hot XD Dyane ha loveyou too. well i dontwanna think 'bout it now except for syf (: congrats girl & i hope i can too. no, i know i can :D JESS !! where got! its you lor! hehe XD zhiwen LOL why you so excited haha yay i can go your oldblog lol jiayoujiayou! 8more days zzz. donald duck ha why you tag but not online de. i got alottttt of things to tell you leh! malan haha yup! jiayou for comps too ^^ <center>xxx</center> 25 March 2007, 9:43 pm It's that kinda love I didnt think i'd ever say this. I didnt expect myself to be actually thinking this. I didnt realise im actually thinking this. I can't believe im thinking this. But... I <3 CCHMSCO more & more. I'll miss CCHMSCO after syf. & I <3 Ruan, like crazy. Im havin' an infatuation for cchmsco & ruan [: Shocked? I am, too. But its damnit true haha & practice today was (: played together with huqin too ^^ it's cool, to see only huqin & ruan in the entire chungcheng HAHA. Okay my day today's goooood excluding the tiredness part keke :D & did I mention, im not chaota literally & Nanatay + Jamie = "Charlie's Angels minus One" = Best Kayak Partners :D kbye this post is just a proof of my recent infatuation/love/crave over cchmsco & ruan keke :D Kong said: I know what you doing I say: Yah T To Z Right. But N I M & At night, he said: Wlau D T To Me T T Z. I say: Z O Ah. Ohyah I D N. Ohwell~ Dont try to figure cos you wont get it. Kong, qw will probably scold me if he knows this. :S HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIWEN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIMING! <center>xxx</center> 23 March 2007, 9:33 pm When you don't keep looking back, it's that much easier not to trip and fall. I think pokkagreentea is <3 & those who know me will know that I buy that almost everyday at bbtea shop so today was rather weird without it :S Had xiaozu & went Parkway with Joane Geraldine then took bus back to school to meet Xieshern Qingwei Zhanrui. 197 home after that (: & Im using caps where there should be in this post cos im supposed to be guai haha no link. There's kranji performance & kayaking tmr. Yeh im going for kayaking cos I handed in form&money already awww part of me feel like going kranji part of me wants to go kayaking. zzz nvrm I have fun both ways ^^ Im tryin' to make my posts archived! But i cant figure how to or rather im lazy to go figure ha who knows let me know! Its getting irritating having to scroll all the way down for something =.o Ive no idea why this post is here cos its so random yo~ I hope I dont turn out chaota literally after tmr's kayaking o.O AHHHH cchmsco jiayou laaaaa :X Faith & Believe works together. (we can do it) x10000000000000000000000000000 ^^ :) :] :)) :]] :B :D zhiwen i still cant get into your blog (if you see this) haha cheerup i know youre very hyper today lol! wulaoshi rocks HAHA dinner again next week? heh. ashlyn jiayou for kranji tmrw! sure can de (: make tby shirt! JESS yes haha & dont copy my "Yo"ing lol. 29thOct is ningmao's birthday la qingwei is 19Oct! anon thanks! you are? Shinn hehe cool mah though kinda stress lol. donald duckLG for kong not me laaaa~ see you tmrw ^^ yiqing o.O proud of? haha not fabulous la i very scared my sanxian very :x scary sia haha thanks! eh eh come back practice tby ! Dyane hello chia! its been long sia i missed you too! but im gonna see you tmrw HAHA update me about yours too :D Zzz im so sleepy. Goooooodnight byebye (: I know its friggin' early but well. Im tired...mentally. I want to close my eyes & fall into a deep deep sleep. And wake up to find that all these are just a dream, that it never was true in reality. <center>xxx</center> 22 March 2007, 9:34 pm it all boils down to faith ytd had tanbo practice & i went zhiwen's house after that. got the shock of my life when i saw the number of erhus in her hosue o.O walked to school busstop took to payalebar & slacked at macs while waiting for junyuan & wulaoshi. they came & wulaoshi treated dinner ^^ went to zhiwen's house next & they repaired erhus & watched dvd (: what can i say. "this post is a test of your mental strength" so true. jiayou, co. nothing more to say. just... jiayou. <center>xxx</center> 20 March 2007, 10 pm the sweet escape there's nothing much to update about except im in love with this song Lost Without You right now ha very nice/meaningful blabla just enjoy. hanakimi ended yesterday & the ending was %&$%#&*^ sounded so familiar though...right, ningmao? haha been more&more enthu about co nowadays! really really hope we can get it argh pray hard! (cross my fingers hope to die) mmm dazu today was nice! people concentrating more, keep quiet more, play better too (: jiayou everybody ! dont let huanglaoshi/wulaoshi down ^^ so today while writing chunkiat's letter, i wrote this instead (ps: ck it'll be featured in your letter too haha) here goes: Students Council has become love And yet has slowly creeped into heart's desire Only wishing for the best --- and only the best Many days & nights spent droning about it Looking into our heart for a definite answer The irony of doubts being unclear itself And us being unable to unravel the mystery. The profound sorrows & grief we pen While carrying a false facade of strength Deception & Pretence has taken over Seeping into our veins letting it flow in the body The structure slowly crumbles, Unable to escape the wrath of mystery Then we pray, as tears flow To escape this scene unscathed. Will our prayers be answered? Will it all come true. Or will it become pure hope on our part. We feign ignorance --- isn't that what we do best? Unable to accept the cruel heartwrenching Truth of reality. Who will be our saviour? The one to pull it apart. I wish it could be me That i could save us from becoming history But we live in lies we create Even as truth unfolds, we deny. I try, To hold my head up high To face this bravely But i falter, i hesitate. Because the strength in me is gone Or maybe it never was there. But still, i try... elaine said its so depressing (?) ohwell. proudly penned by yourstruly (: i've no idea why but the more i wrote, the more... emotional i got? yaaaah so it become hellva long "essay" hehe got back hcl/amaths/ss paper. hcl - 63/100, ss - 14/25, amaths - 36/40. woohoo first time i got A1 for my amaths mygod mygod mygod im over the moon~ keke. my ss sucked, though. im disappointed in myself, truly D: sorry ms.w! ladeelah nothing much. cchmsco jiayou! 14 more days to syf! 3rdApril is crawling nearer & nearer :S jiayou jiayou jiayou lets put in our best, give it our last shot! dont make it another narrow loss. WE CAN DO IT! like what ss lesson was about today, impossible is nothing hehe~ CCHMSCO -the music of togetherness (: you know what? Believe. believe in us, believe in yourself. this isn't a one-man show. this is for us. every syf school is practicing, we're not the only ones. the difference between a good& notsogood school, is the desire to have it. do you have it in you? do you want it? because we can. i know we can. we all know it. its only whether we want to, or not. believe in our co, believe. believe in our ability, believe. believe in qbmy, believe. believe in jkdlf, believe. believe that we can make it, believe. believe that we wont make the same mistake, believe. believe, in cchmsco. if we ever said we'd never be together & ended in goodbyes i dont know what i'd do, im lost without you <center>xxx</center> 17 March 2007, 10:26 pm Simple an understatement 140307 Wednesday met at singpost for breakfast again lol this time dragged along camping stuffs & piglet haha. had dazu, lunch, xiaozu, combine practice with percussion. played MJ in co room & went over to councillor camp. slacked there cos didnt have any groups. had dinner, followed by this capture the flag game which was violent! ha chunkiat jiewei ivie yongteck came too ^^ then had talentime & was the judge together with the 4seniors lol veryvery hilarious (: dismissed people to bunks, & we went historyroom some played MJ some slept. 150307 Thursday & then woke wanxin up at 5am to bath LOL- had breakfast & headed back to co. ohgod my eyelids were closing! both huanglaoshi&wulaoshi didnt come today D: so we had small, short dazu & headed to comlab for ppt presentation & then lunch & then had combined practice with percussion & then played MJ & then went back to councillor camp. hmm heard some not-so-good things o.O had dinner, briefing, nightwalk! walked the firstgroup -- chrystal jeremiah weijie & myself. only sec4 sia dont play play LOL & it was very smooth&fast. the 3 of them said they next time wanna walk with me again hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. waited for kaichun at lt2 & both of us headed to newblock to pei cherie&zhenming. after nightwalk went to history room to sleep&MJ where MJ was more haa & we ordered macs in (: jiewei & i ran out to get the macs cos the uncle kept horning =.o went back to co again in the morning & 160307 Friday OHMYGOD i wanted to dao already damndamn shag. wulaoshi came today :D had tanbo practice & yay we rock mwhahahaha eh eh we go make tanbo shirt! XD then something not-so-good happened :/ hmm had dazu & then lunch & went back to councillor to break camp. had xiaozu after that, then dazu, then xiaozu. walked out & went home. bathed changed & went to novenasq with family to celebrate brother's 13thbirthday lol. ate at pepperlunch & its really nice (: reached home & immediately fell into a deeeeeep sleep! 170307 Saturday co starts at 8 & i woke up at 7.30! chiong-ed down to school & reached there just in time (: was damn hyper after a good night of rest! moved instruments to concourse with alfred! ohgod he's like the cutest sec1 on earth :D "jiayou nuli yongbufangqi" hehe. had interaction day with msia co & nanhua & today's qbmy was better but jkdlf was zzz. ohwell nevermind its okay JIAYOU! after that me & dianwen went crazy. both of us played MJ, each take two places HAHA! then joane yongchuan joined us. walked out & was amused by yuanyang dianwen jingwen yaochang's...medley. HAHA went home bathed & went out again -.- met family&cousins at citylink & went to eat at NewYork NewYork :D back home now & ohgod i havent touched any homework D: ho-kay im going to try do some e-learning/amaths shit. march holidays wasn't a holiday.. at all. was back in school for the whole week (except monday) & the hours was longer than normal school days however, i had ultimate fun ! & i havent experience that kinda fun for a very very looooong time o.O <li>firstly i found back my love for co (hehheh) & am more enthu now mwhahahaha & qbmy keeps playing in my head! the slightest noise makes me think of qbmy =.o <li>secondly it felt so great not having to worry about camp & sec3s, good job well done! :D <li>thirdly, CCHMSCO JIAYOU we can do it ~ ! & one thing, my sanxian's string cut my last finger today D: its very painful & there's one line in my pinky sigh heal before syf! & im coughing like crazy & having a flu & i've no voice & my temperature now is 38.8degrees :S goodnight. on second thoughts, maybe im fine without you... totally. <center>xxx</center> 13 March 2007, 9:51pm 50% love, 50% trust yesterday's co syf beach ecp outing was fun ^^ went zhiwen's house first, (that makes my fourth in three days! omg zhiwen, can i like make your house my house? HA) met joane, walked to ecp & pasted clues etc. slacked at bench while waiting for them & sat by the beach. they came, played musical tree LOL & treasure hunt. yay group38 rockszxszxz keke :D joane tenghui yongchuan jingwen yaochang & i walked to macdonalds, brought 60 burgers 60 drinks BACK to the yellowtower there & wtf i carried the 60 burger box for like 80% of the journey #*&%*&@*& my arms were aching like crazy after that. tenghui & i had no energy to even pick up our burgers to eat cos our arms kept shivering o.O then then we played water bombs ^^ sec4s vs juniors. had fun bombing people, protecting our holy person aka zhiwen! lala sec4s rock socks :DDD uhhuh- we went into the sea then. or rather, was pushed/pulled into the sea zzz & we dunked our tuanzhang zhiwen in! so cool ^^ i hope exco/theboard doesnt do that to me, though LOL. had a fun time splashing around in the pool, taking photos/videos, forming circles, singing qbmy/jkdlf in the sea! after that zhiwen dismissed & we walked to the shower area, went in with estelli & then met up with the rest & went to rent-a-bike. people were: kent, tenghui, mingda, joane, clarence, estelli, yongchuan, yaochang, alfred, aaron, joshua-- there're somemore people but i cant remember! anyway we cycled to bedok jetty, & waited for zhiwen who went home to bathe -.- cycled further up & then back! raced & the last one would be pig hahaha was cycling with clarence yongchuan & then ended up 5th. not bad la top5 mwhahaha mingda was 1st followed by tenghui, clarence, claire, myself (: took many photos! & i shant say who was the pig lol. walked to the way to parkway (seriously i dont know whats so funny about it but its just funny!), to 76 to payalebar, to cityhall, to marinabay. junyuan & wushuliang laoshi came! hmm, all along this journey was talking to yaochang about theboard & ... i cried. yeh i suppose couldnt take it any longer sigh. so along the busride there they kept asking me not to cry etcetc & mingda kept giving me tissues, junyuan kept making me laugh haha thanks ((: ohoh, met 4bn there cos they were having class outing & talked to kaichun too. thankyou! zhiwen treated us to marinabay bbq thankyou! went home early with joane kent yaochang estelli clarence cos wasnt in the mood la sorry. reached home & thought about it zzz. today was supposed to meet 730 at singpost macs but i woke up at 730 -.- so i cabbed down to singpost & spent $8 wtf macs for breakfast & cabbed to school tmd. & yes im sunburnt, like chaota literally! ): pain ah. dazu in the morning rocked! wulaoshi very charming~ keke remember two years back how we improved tremendously under him? ^^ (: [: :D lunch blabla & dazu with huanglaoshi which was :x sigh<blockquote>zhiwen cheerup! i know how you feel k ofcos i do, you should get what i mean yah. our this post really bu hao dang but we can do it! lets stay strong together. remember we must be thankful&glad to have such wonderful sec4 committee members with us regardless of your co or my councillor. our batch rocks la :D</blockquote>then walked out with xieshern qingwei jess & halfway it rained. ! zzz qingwei xieshern walked under umbrella though xs says its no difference while me & jess literally ran in the rain & was soaked/drenched all over! 197 with xieshern qingwei was fun :D the usuals -- both of them quarrelling/yada yada but i miss it ley so it was fun to me hehe. reached home, watched hanakimi & online~ oh oh this is funny<blockquote> chang_hong internet is so great!!!!says: yo Deceptions & Pretence says: AHHHH Deceptions & Pretence says: im so excited for you hehe chang_hong internet is so great!!!! says: i finally got internet!!!!!! chang_hong internet is so great!!!! says: hehe Deceptions & Pretence says: omg</blockquote>HAHA im so happy for changhong XD tomorrow's councillor camp till friday & co's everyday 9-6 ohmygod. im going to be like some zombie for the next 3days o.O <center>cchmsco i know we can do it! we've got a gold lastyear & we were that close to the honours! we all know it, in our hearts. seniors came back today & i suddenly remembered two years ago. i know we can do it, i just know it. we've got it in us! i know we can! its just 3 more weeks! lets give it our last shot. jiayou :D</center> someone just told me this: ohmy so scary, jamie suddenly so enthu co. -.- wlao good lor like that say HAHA but well. i really have faith in us ^^ & i really want that honours for cchmsco! well, who doesnt. lol i'll post pictures when zhiwen sends them to me (: last part of this long wordy post: on sunday i saw this at zhiwen's house & quoted it to kent & co. insanity is doing the same thing over & over again after hearing it, kent says: so everyone is insane la cos we're walking over & over again. ZZZZZOMG. when the memories arent strong enough to guide me through, i need you by my side. its all an act, a false facade, a brave front. & you, & only you, can pull my mask away, revealing the real world, without me feeling afraid hopeless helpless. even though i say i dont, in fact i do. i really do. imy. <center>xxx</center> 12 March 2007, 6:12 am time now is 6.12 in the MORNING & here i am using the computer o.O going to meet joane later & then heading for zhiwen's house again for the third time in 3days. ! haha going to get stuffs then both of us chiong-ing to ecp to prepare for syf beach outing ^^ o-kay i also dont know why i came here -.- had a hell load of fun yesterday with joane zhiwen mingda kent yongchuan -- riding bicycles, taking pictures, eating at macs "80 burgers", back to zhiwen's house, watching The Host. ha just a day of relaxation ohman long long time when i actually relaxed. !! ecp though, brought back many memories :x got to go bye! another post before midnight (: <center>xxx</center> 10 March 2007, 10:26 pm the world's changing & so is everyone 09037 Friday Talentime had co which was really slack cos... shan't say but i really wanted to go through jkdlf & qbmy with ruan but zzz. nevermind. walked out with brother to meet bano & kong for dinner, & back into school for talentime omg anthony&abel rocks ^^ dad fetched us & bano kong out to busstop. 100307 Saturday had co in the morning & there's an improvement! jiayou :D goldwithhonours! hmm walked out with comm members & to zhiwen's house for comm meeting. cool or what, comm meeting at chairperson's house LOL zhiwen's mum ordered pizza & sec3s did interaction&games day, sec4s did beach outing. yay we're going to have looooads of fun (: i hope. haha~ talked alot, alot today & well there're manymany things i & many people just realised today. i guess its not only theboard facing such problems. zzz when they narrated the scene it sounded so much like the problem im facing in theboard & i almost wanted to cry. plus the fact that kaichun messaged me to tell me someone who wants to * & when i read the message i felt tears in my eyes but well was in meeting so couldn't cry. anyway zhiwen walked sec4 comm to busstop & dad fetched me home i dont know what to say. only that its really really scary how human is. there're so many things in this world that's unpredictable & its sad to see people turning against each other. why, why. why must all resort to creating such misery upon others, and inevitably themselves? that's one man for himself. ay, life isn't fair. it sure isn't. friends? ohman you never know.. tomorrow going beach ecp with some sec4 comm ha but then again like what pauline said, after knowing all these, what's the point? i went home & thought over everything during comm meeting. now, i myself also don't know how i'd feel even if we get the honours... ohwell lets just do our part well & good. (: same goes for exco! hehe i love you guys. i don't know why but i just do :D chunkiat! when will you come back man i miss seniors alot alot alot ! & kong, get well soon! its weird not talking to you on msn haha & seeing your pink fonts in msn conversations lol. takecare! & zhanrui, my dear vicepresident get well soon too! friday's fb was zzz takecare takecare! don't leave me alone with changhong! hahaha i know i can say this cos ch doesn't come here XD AND i want to say this.<blockquote>thankyou, exco who've been by me during this shit period of time. though it havent ceased, im sure we will be able to make it aye! & sec4 comm, goldwithhonours ^^</blockquote> im suddenly so enthu about co HAHA! <center>xxx</center> 08 March 2007, 10:41 pm HELLO it has been really long since i actually typed/updated my blog mainly cos of common tests & of course the fact that im born lazy lol. im elated common tests are over cos it means no more late night muggings for the next day's test & no more cramming biology sexual reproduction in animals which days are fertile period where fertilisation actually takes place blablashit. you see, the information goes into one brain & somehow manages to diffuse out i don't know why D: so today after biology test went for short co meeting followed by movie ! damn that movie is very nice & touching & sad ohgod i didn't regret (: anyway june don't be sad anymore & don't feel helpless! & malan don't feel that way too! i suppose we're just born this way aren't we, taurus. if you get what i mean haha. & qingwei! please get well soon cos 197 busrides without you quarrelling with kong is weird & wah you good lor leave me alone to argue with that kong -.- hmm im looking forward to tomorrow cause... i also don't know why HAHA but im going on a rescue mission to save kangkiat & co. for marchcamp! kevin, im sacrificing my recess time ok see im so nice XD i think this post is aimless yadayada new skin from bloggertemplates (or something like that) plain simple i like it (: & recently ningmao got me into the wuzun-craze cause he's really very charming! hanakimi is such a fantasy show but well brings us out of our complicated crazy world. in english we learnt today that we "don't have the time to let imagination take us into another world" haha & my darling k800i is spoilt & currently under the care of sonyericson i miss it! IM GOING TO PULL FLAG WITH DYANECHIA TOMORROW yay yay such a long time already i miss sec2 flagraisers! & with all the recent happenings around me, dang i miss seniors. so, so much... <center>xxx</center> </div> </body> </html>